What are my thoughts?

Today, there are so many things going on my mind. I want to get out high school because I want to be in college. I want to have a car to be able to go anywhere, with my friends, etc. I want to have money, I want to go snowboarding, I want to visit my family in Mexico. There's a lot more in what to think about. But I started wondering am I able to do this, all the things I want. I realize that somethings are becoming to be real. But others are becoming to be way from me. Because I don't have the same tools as others for starting. Sometimes you hear comments where at some point it makes you feel real bad. Maybe you are wonder why people think that you are not able to do what you want to do. I just to have my life like everyone else. Be a teenager is complicated because so many things happening around you that you don't know where to start. How to know when this thing is totally right or wrong. Nobody is going to complain about it, or someone might be upset for what you did. Life is hard, but harder is to live in it and to learn to survive. After all, living is just a piece of life that you borrow since the first time you open your eyes, when you are a baby. Life is a borrow that you never know when you have to take back and give it to somebody else, just as a baby born.

I try to live my life, I believe and I have so many things that keeps me moving forward. First of all, it is my life, my friends, my hobbies, etc. The hopeless of some day have the my own building. The fact the people coming to have different goals in our lives, most important to keep us forward especially, that when you know what you want.

What would I change about the past year.

I know that I have been doing what I should be doing. There was a lot of things I have done this year. I have making some mistakes. If I have the opportunity of going back and change my past would be the way I express my father how much I love him. I am not really expressive with him. I don't talk to much with him. This one of the first things for sure I would change. I think I would change to put me a reminder of my brother's birthday's, no one remind his birthday. One big mistake because he felt so bad, I told him I didn't forget it. But the truth was that I was forgotten my this situation. There also the way I am acting. I know my personality is changing. I putting things for the last minute. It is one of the things I need to change.

A- stand for Alexis, my little brother. who only has 13 years old but he knows the thinks everything. I won't blame him. I know how that goes. I passed by that certain time. He has the same personality, character than my father. He is always arguing with him.

B is for bilingual. I am able to express my ideas in two different languages, Spanish or English. I know I still in process of learning, just as everyone else.

C is for college, I am ready to go college. I can't wait, I have and I feel anxious for being in college. I do want graduate and I going because I want to go college. It is one of my goal. I been waiting for this thing to happen. CAHS where my goals were coming more true.

D is for drawing, a really art form that it always allowing to go further and further, trespassing frontiers. Drawing is one of my arts form. But lately, I have done so much to improve my skill.

E is for English, my second language. It is sometimes hard to me because I frick out and words from my mouth won't coming out even from my fingers. I am still learning this language that for others it is normal but to me is complicated in the way I realize that I still to learn so much from it. Which I have to because it is important. Sometimes this stop in saying something . I am not sure of what to say.

Fabulously word that I learned from Booker, fabulous as those days when I stayed at home and do nothing, except sleep a long day.

G is for genial ideas I have for improvement my persona according to what I want in life. I think I have so man

H is for history of my life. I done so many things, good, bad and other ok. I think I have so much to show people that I am here. I want to make history...

I is for insolation when I want to go further than I expect but I am not able to because.

J is for joules the SI measurement for energy. The energy I have to keep moving forward. Energy I get from eating the wonderful food.

K is for kisses that I get from people who love me. They make me feel much better. It make feel than I am special to them. I think this is pretty lovely when it come to me.

L is for lonely, most of the time I like to be lonely because it makes feel full of energy, relax my self and think about what I want to do. Lonely has become part of me and I am not scared of this.

M is for Mother, I am really thankful with her because she have been working too much for us. She is the best mother I have. She is really a hard worker. She has a special wishes that everywhere she is very friendly with everyone.

N is for New year that is coming. It seems unreal that the new year is almost approaching. New start for everyone, hoping to have everything they wanted to have done by the end of the year.

O is for opportunity that the life itself has gave to me. Opportunity I have for being in the school, for have the chance of working. Opportunities that I have my family with me.

P is for my passions, which are a lot that I have in my head such as graphic design, sports, music...

S is for Saturday the day I start working, sometimes it is kind hard because I have to wake up so early that make frustrated with my self.

T is for time, I spent with my family, which is barely because they always working they never are at home. Time I have for be at school and have everything ready for the next morning. Time the I always in things are not important. Time, I am not taking advantage of it and do what I should be doing.

U is for Ulises, my name. At first I thought I didn't like because no one else has it. I realize that this make me unique for having this name. Ulises like the character from a story I read before where Ulises was the hero.

V is for violet, the favorite of my mom, favorite color she always wear when she has specials occasions. Favorite color that one day she decide to wear it because of my grandmother.